I have to admit, sometimes it is just plain, damn difficult to think of life’s grand design when shit hits the fan. My mom was a single mom for half of my life. I don’t know if this is generally a common result, but I am EXTREMELY protective of my mommy. God forbid someone should hurt or upset her…I come out with guns blazing. I grew even more protective when she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue about 12 years ago. I was forced to watch my mom change from an energetic, vivacious woman, to someone who has to battle with constant pain and exhaustion. The simplest tasks like taking a shower would exhaust her. It came to the point where she couldn’t work anymore. That was a major blow to my mom. Like me, she is incredibly independent and had always wanted to do everything herself. So facing disability was a big pill to swallow. But she accepted it, mind me, not give in, but realized she had limitations now. There were times throughout the years where I watched her battle depression due to her new restraints, but like my mommy always has done, she overcame her inner demons and came out on the other side stronger.
Now we have another test. The insurance company that she recieved long term disability, decided to stop the payments with no due cause. How is it that we live in a society that forces us to pay monthly to insurance companies, thinking that they will be there for us when needed, and then surprise!! They say,” screw you, we just wanted your money and not help you at all. ” I don’t get it. My mind is swarming with thoughts, unfortunately, not the nicest towards this particular company. Researching it on-line, apparently they have a history of “mentally abusing” their clients. The stress and pain they have caused my family throughout the years, I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I even hope the president of this insurance co. gets better treatment if ever needed than we have. No one deserves to have every sense of security ripped out from underneath you, especially someone so incredible as my mommy. I know we all have to keep the faith and put it in Gods hands and that everything happens for a reason for us to learn from…but still…I wouldn’t mind the test of how to react to winning the lottery and then funding the cure to fibromyalgia.
Blessed be
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